There is so much that I don't know about you yet. I don't know your eye or hair color. I don't know your gender. I don't know what your father and I will name you. I don't know what kind of personality you'll have. But there is one thing that I do know, that I love you more deeply than I ever thought it was possible to love someone.
You'll never know just how badly I wanted you or how often I prayed to be a mother. The day that your father and I found out about you was the happiest day of our lives. I remember the total disbelief that I felt as I stared down at those two pink lines. It was happening. You were on your way. We were going to be parents and our lives would be forever changed for the better. From the second that I looked at that positive pregnancy test, I was a mother and nothing was more important than you. Nothing will ever be more important than you. I have seen you in an ultrasound and I have heard your heartbeat. Those moments will forever be solidified in my memory. I will never forget how lucky and blessed that I felt to get those tiny glimpses of you. Those moments made everything more real and added so much joy to my life.
I was creating life, your life. I was creating you. You are my greatest achievement and my proudest creation. I imagine all of the fun that we will have together, all of the laughs that we will share. I am treasuring every moment of this pregnancy. Please take your time growing. Take as long as you need. I can't wait to meet you but I know that you'll let me know when you're ready to meet the world.
I can't wait to kiss your cuts and bruises. I can't wait to teach you how to ride a bike. I can't wait to hold you for the first time. I can't wait to hear you laugh. I can't wait to watch you grow and learn. I can't wait to see the person that you will grow up to be. I can't wait to be your parent.
Your grandparents taught me a lot and I will definitely be using what they taught me when I raise you. I can't promise you that I will do everything right, no matter how hard I try. But please know, that no matter what, I will do my absolute best every single day. I will be learning right along with you. I will always do what I think is best for you. We will disagree at times and we'll get mad at each other. But it won't matter. Those things will pass. But what will never change is that we love each other and that will always be the most important thing.
You are so incredibly loved already and you aren't even here yet. But it's not just by your father and I. Our friends and family have rallied behind us and have been so supportive and loving. They all can't wait to meet you and welcome you into the world. You will always have an endless supply of love.
I will give you the best life that I can. I can't promise you the best that money can buy. I can't shower you with everything that you'll ever want. But I will always find a way to make sure that you get what you need. I will teach you everything that I can about life and help you navigate the complexities of your own. I will help you figure out who you are and teach you how to love yourself, no matter what. I will nurse your heartbreaks and hold you while you cry. I will always give you a shoulder to cry on. We are in this together and I will always be there for you. Your father and I will always be your biggest supporters, your biggest cheerleaders and your biggest fans.
Having you was our dream and now it is our next big adventure. Thank you for choosing us to be your parents. We love you so much already Baby Smith and I promise that our love will continue to grow as you do.
Love,
your mommy
