I use my imagination a lot; it's no secret. Actually, it's something that I'm quite proud of. I enjoy seeing what my mind is capable of coming up with and exploring new territory that was previously seen as a limitation. However, I'm wondering if my imagination running wild is getting me into a bit of trouble.
Ever since my husband enlisted in the army, I've been very excited, nervous but still excited, about where our lives were going to end up. Were we going to be sent to Vermont? India? Alaska? Whether or not any of these options are plausible for the field that he's going into, I'm not really sure. I don't have nearly as much information as I'd like. Therefore, I rely on my thoughts and my thoughts alone, until I'm able to have clear-cut, black and white information and some orders about where we'll be living.
So basically, I've been joking around a lot, saying to my husband, "Just watch. We'll be sent to live in the middle of nowhere." Of course, it's only a joke but part of me still fears that I'll end up in cornfield somewhere, alone and bored out of my mind. I am not saying that living in those conditions is a bad thing. I'm just saying that I'm really shy and introverted, so living in area where not a lot of other people live and doesn't have that much going on, I fear going into a depression and becoming really lonely. However, I have a friend that is a military wife, who says that she made that joke a lot and now she really does live in the middle of nowhere; so she warned me not to jinx myself. So now, I definitely don't say that anymore.
Instead, now I picture myself living on a tropical island in Hawaii or something very similar to it. I'm hoping that if I wish hard enough, I'll end up living in my own little paradise, or Key West would suffice. I started thinking about all of the wonderful activities that I'd be able to do in these places that I could potentially be sent to live in and I got even more excited for my already wonderful future ahead of me. But while I was talking to my little sister, Kelly, about all of the amazing things that we could do if that did end up happening to my husband and I, I started to wonder, what if I'm still sent to the middle of nowhere? What if all of this is just wishful thinking and I do end up alone somewhere?
It scared me because my imagination had already gone crazy just thinking of the wonderful opportunities that would be presented to me if I lived somewhere else that was more exciting than my hometown. So this is the one time that I think that my imagination had finally gotten me into some trouble because I was really sad at the idea that I gotten my hopes up for something that would never happen, which is my own fault but I couldn't help it. It's just human nature to want amazing things so bad that you could taste them.
However, I know that no matter where my husband and I end up, I won't be truly alone because we will have each other and we will have the capability to travel to wherever our hearts desire. Also, within the next few years, we will probably have some little babies running around the house and I'll be able to help them nurture their imaginations as well. That is what is going to be able to keep me going through this long, strenuous process which will lead to my wonderful, perfect, unpredictable life.
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