1. Moving away- I'm staying with my mom until Kris gets his orders and we find out where we're going to be living next. I want to move away with Kris and start our lives together but the idea of moving away from my mother scares me to death. For all I know, Kris and I could get stationed on the other side of the globe. It's a scary thing to know that if I needed something or needed help, I wouldn't have it at disposal anymore. I wouldn't be able to just call my mom and have her come to the rescue anymore. I know that moving is a necessary thing to do and that I want to do it, but the whole idea seems overwhelming.
2. Failure- For 5 years I slaved away on my first novel and after I finished it, I went to a publishing seminar. I learned a lot but it also petrified me. There are so many steps to publishing a novel and tons of rejection. The idea that my whole career is in the hands of other people that don't know me personally, only through query letters, seems really unfair and scary. My fear is that after all that I've invested and all the time that I've spent on my novel, which I love, that I'll fail and that I'll never be published.
3. Disappointing people- This has always been my biggest challenge in life. I'm a people-pleaser. I never want to disappoint anyone. If I let them down, I get really hard on myself and just continue to make myself feel worse. I'm afraid that if I disappoint people, even if unintentional, that they'll hate me or always think less of me after that, no matter what I do to fix it. I'm working on overcoming this fear every day but it's still always in the back of my head.
That's it for today's prompt! Tune in tomorrow if you'd like to see my next post!
-Chelsea
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